Music is my prostitute

'Music is my prostitute, its my whore... so f**king pay me!'

Photography by Dale Wesley Hill (http://purpleport.com/portfolio/headshotsportraiture/)

Limited edition prints of this image are available at: http://www.ukvpro.co.uk/photocart/index.php?do=photocart&viewGallery=10006#page=thumbs

I love music, I can't imagine life without it - if there's civilization elsewhere in the universe, they will definitely have 2 things we do: maths (because we need to be able to count) and music.

Its a form of communication; it can mean I love you, I don't want to talk right now, I'm grieving, I'm happy...the meanings are endless.

Much like art its subject to opinion and personal connotations too. I have songs I can no longer listen to or because they're associated with break ups or funerals. 

My partner made me mix cd's when we were at school together,  I really don't think there is a much more romantic gesture, the music spoke to me - it said I want you to be part of my world. A thing I didn't realise until much, much later (9 years to be exact!)

I wanted to get across in this shoot just how pleasurable music can be and how I feel it is part of me.

More images from my shoot with Dale Wesley Hill below...

There is a light that never goes out

Recently I worked with the fascinating mind of Andrew McCormick, it was a short yet sweet shoot and a lot was achieved in a short time. Andrew excels at conceptual imagery, his pictures are the kind of visuals one might see in a dream...

 

He was kind enough to help me create an image I had in my head and this is that image:

'There is a light that never goes out'

Other than my love of the song which (for you people who haven't heard this masterpiece by The Smiths) you can listen to here, I wanted to create this image because its how I feel my brain works, I have a series of lightbulb moments and inspiration strikes me in the side of the head with what feels like a giant mallet or the light remains off and all original thought is gone.

I found this when I was younger- it doesn't work when you're trying to research ideas for a graphic design project, you start searching for relevant imagery and then your head suddenly goes 'Ooh ooh, don't bother with that, I just had the most fabulous idea, you have to do this!' and suddenly you bypass all the research or deliberately find things associated with that one idea. It did make for some really cool pieces but didn't work so much in my favour on the grades front :S

Anyway my mind still pretty much works this way with the bright idea moments but having met so many talented and inspiring artists and having a constant feed to so many wonderful images, my light now remains on, sometimes it dims but it never goes out.


All images copyright of Andrew McCormick

Yesterdays News

Photography and Image Manipulation by Lorna's Photography - http://www.lornasphotography.co.uk/



Recently I've been pondering about social media and the internet, is it a good thing or a bad thing? I think its both.
I think it would only be fair that I hold it in a positive light - after all, I basically depend on it, if I didn't use social media, I wouldn't have met and worked with all the wonderful people I have over the last few years, I wouldn't have a constant dripfeed of amazing images to inspire me and my concepts, I wouldn't be able to speak to the people that create these marvels. I owe social media so much.

Looking at it on a non personal level, it allows people to connect with likeminded individuals, find love, friendship, it allows someone to feel like part of this world, people can share stories, music, jokes, images and that's a beautiful thing.

And yet it disturbs me, everybody has access to it - I hear more and more stories of people that have been burgled as a result of saying they were 'going on holiday' in a status or shared that picture of the kids in front of their family home without thinking.
Where social media can be used to spread love it can also be used to spread hate, people spread their dirty laundry across facebooks pages, divorce settlements go public, someone's name gets smeared in the dirt and things get unpretty. Everyone has an opinion but do they have a right to share it? We do have freedom of speech after all.

I see 'news' stories shared of pure horror and shock, nothing but a hoax but if enough people share it, does it become actual news? Lets take a look at the definition of news; 'a newly received or noteworthy information, especially about recent events.' 

Seems to be correct but how much actual news are we ignoring as a result of this?
Last week there was a huge mudslide in Washington, the fatalities were high, others were missing; it was a complete tragedy.

The same week A-list celebrity couple Chris Martin and Gwyneth Paltrow announced they were to split up. 

Twitter and Facebook obviously favoured the latter.

And so thats what this image is: a question, what really matters and what is just yesterdays news?

Sea of dreams

Recently I was extremely lucky to work with the talented Lorna's Photography (http://www.lornasphotography.co.uk/) on her new Wonderland project, she is just fantastic at conceptual photography and always has fab ideas.
She helped me shoot one of mine too, will blog about that a bit later on.

Not only is she very talented but also extremely down to earth and genuinely lovely, she puts 100% into the execution of her shoots and for this particular one dragged a bed down to the beach, built it and dragged it back.

 

Now that's dedication!!!

There was the most hilarious moment as we walked back to the car, Lorna dragging the bed back and I was walking along in my fluffy bear eared onesie with batman hoodie to keep warm (see pic underneath) - a group of older folk, took one look at us and one said 'we won't ask!', another one said 'Oh, its a bed is it? Did you find it?!!' Yes, because of course we walked on the beach, thought ooh thats a nice bit of furniture, its missing an end but that doesn't matter and picked it up. I know we looked a little bit strange but really!

All in all though it was a really fun shoot and I have to thank Lorna for a great day, can't wait to see the rest :)

Lorna has blogged all about the concept behind 'Sea of Dreams' here:
http://lornasphotography.tumblr.com/post/80808459173/wonderland 
It's well worth checking out :)

Product review - models own nail polish - Speckled eggs in magpie green

I've used models own nail polishes a few times now, they have a great variety of colours and styles so there's always something that suits.

In the past while I've appreciated the quality of the tone and shine,  I've found that the polish flakes extremely quickly, sometimes in the space of a day.

Last night I road tested models own new Easter inspired 'speckled eggs' in green magpie,
The Polish is of a nice consistency, not too clarity or fluid and brushes on like a dream. I was impressed to find it dried very quickly too, taking only a few minutes to set. The minor drawback is the smell, sure everyone who uses nail polish will be familiar with the strong chemical smell it creates but I'm used to it and I found this to be a wee bit overpowering!

After 2 coats, my talons looked like this:

It's a really nice effect - obviously intended to resemble a birds egg but it has more of a mint choc chip resonance (not that that's a bad thing!)

It's nice as a Spring trend look, definitely perfect for easter or indeed any time you fancy something a bit different. However the model and creative in me sees the chance to do something reptilian or amphibious in appearance, I think it could make for a really interesting look. The cogs in my mind are turning!

Models own is available at Superdrugs and in the small independent bottle stores which are soooo cute!
*goes glassy eyed*

I however took advantage of the great deal they've got on their website at the moment with 6 polishes for £20 which considering they're normally 5-7 quid each is pretty good going.

Http://www.modelsownit.com

My Fall Will Be For You

So I decided I would start this blog to share my random thoughts and to explain a bit of my thought process behind my pictures, modelling style and processes.

I thought I would start with this recent collaboration with Iceni
(Http://www.purpleport.com/portfolio/iceni)
He does some marvellous work, I really recommend you check it out if you like conceptual photography and art.

The title comes from the lyrics in the Nightwish song 'Ghost Love Score' - it's a beautiful piece at an epic 10 minutes long, highly recommended http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JYjIlHWBAVo

The actual concept is from personal experience, a few years ago I was suffering from depression and anxiety, I was in the wrong place with the wrong partner, sacked from a job unfairly (though now I see that its probably the best thing that happened to me), I lost all faith in myself and became entirely unhappy. I grew to hate myself, I didn't even like what I saw in the mirror.

Now when this happens, despite the fact your friends and family support you and ask if you are ok or need help, you grow so down in yourself that you close off to the love and support around you and feel that you are something of a burden to them.

This is how I felt until I met a person who made me see that life is what you make it and that its far too short to be with the wrong person or take a path that you're unhappy with. I realised that the only person that could stop me from falling into this spiral of negativity was myself. It wasn't going to be easy, I was going to have to be brave and plunge into the unknown to save myself. So one morning I woke up, I ended my 6 year relationship with 1 sentence and left immediately, I started to model again ( I previously wasn't 'allowed' to) and slowly I pulled myself back up to the surface.

I saved myself.